Sunday, April 2, 2017

Trusting Where I'm At

The future is called 'perhaps', which is the only possible thing to call the future. And the important thing is not to allow that to scare you. - Tennessee Williams 

When living in Los Angeles time flies by. Your body doesn't get a natural reset with each season. The consistent sunshine blurs the months together. My life can feel like its wildly riding the current, until the waves come crashing, forcing me to a break. This reckless way of living wears on me. It can cause me to regret mistakes of my past, or become overwhelmed by my future-what-ifs. But like the ocean waves, time keeps rolling and breaking without any of our control. This city, sometimes makes me feel like I am never winning. One success can be drowned by a bigger rejection. What can I do to keep me afloat? How can I find balance with my ambitions and not be engulfed by my expectations?  
Lately, I am learning to find peace in 'where I am at'. Being kind to myself, and acknowledging where I might be in that present moment. I know, its hard. It takes slowing down, breathing deep into your lungs and being honest with yourself. When I am feeling defeated or stressed from my work, I give myself the break to take a step back. I'll go for a walk, disconnect from social media, go to bed a little earlier. These actions of self-love help me 'be ok' with where I am at- and in the long run helps me achieve my goals in a much healthier and positive way. There's two versions of life one can choose. 1) Constantly wishing and or looking for the next best thing. or 2) Embracing the present moment. Even when I am not exactly where I envisioned myself. There is beauty in how life brings us somewhere unexpectedly. It's a long journey babes. So catch the wave, soak in the sun, and see where it takes you. 
Zara Trousers, Top and Slip-ons, Vintage purse from my grandmother (Modern update here), 
Zac Posen Sunglasses (Similar to here). 

Photos by LA Photographer Elaine Torres 


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