Friday, August 10, 2018

The Confidence Code.

Confidence. That idea, I chased it for years. My observant self, would soak in people who seemed truly comfortable within themselves. I mimicked their behavior, but had no luck. What was their secret? What was I missing? Once I stopped searching and copying, it slowly came to me. Confidence isn't something we can obtain. It's fleeting. It takes daily work, to radiate that mysterious and generous feeling for life. We all have phases, where we feel strong in our vulnerability, and beautiful in our skin. The work, is making those days more consistent. So the highs and lows aren't so dramatic. 
My style has always been a tool to connect with my confidence. Style is not just clothing to me, its is self expression and point of view. I instantly felt confident in this cool white look. Bell bottoms, crop top, and a fresh hairstyle. All the pieces came together, and I was feeling myself. Never is nothing wrong, in embracing what makes you feel good. And for me, putting on sick outfit can change my point of view for the day. Sometimes the outside helps us shine from the inside. 
All white looks are a little dangerous- the risks for stains and dirt marks is very high. Honestly, white is one of my favorite colors to wear. It's a neutral, and always illuminates tan summer skin. I adore the LA based brand Honey Punch. These stretch flares are coming out in their fall collection. They are a must, and I will be wearing them year round with mens wear button downs, and flirty off the shoulder tops. I love that this look harks back to the 70's. I always find inspiration in other decades, and I always love the sexy playfulness that came with that era of disco + rock n roll. Would you try an all white bell bottom? 
Honey Punch White Bell Bottoms (Available in October similar style here), Lulu's Smock Eyelet Top, Steve Madden Heels, Lulu's Basket Bag (Similar style here).
Photos by Stefanie Marie


Monday, August 6, 2018

Breaking Through: How Acting Brought Me Closer to Myself.

Surprising to some, I was a painfully shy kid. I kept to myself, didn’t talk much, loved being alone. Quiet. Creative. A tiny gentle soul. I remember seeing other kids, loud and boisterous. I never wanted to mimic that. I was observant, and liked to have little attention on me. I hid in my shyness until I found the stage. It was an instant love affair. I realized at a young age, pretending to be someone else gave me freedom. It was a my adrenaline rush. The hot heat of the lights, the buzzing from the audience. Looking back, I know it connected me to the deep and brave parts of me. Even the parts that I wasn't even conscious of existing within me. It was liberating in the pretend- believing I was someone else for an hour or so. It wasn't escapism, it was bringing me closer to myself. 
I notice the shy girl still within me. I wouldn't consider myself a true extrovert. I like to listen more. Take in people, hear about their lives. My heart and spirit are a little guarded when I meet someone new. Over the years, I have worked hard to open up more. Allow myself to reveal sooner, than wait around. I think the shyness overcomes me when I allow self doubts to creep in. 'Imposter syndrome' takes overs. That's when I need acting most- I run away from my life a little. But by diving into these characters, I somehow confront my fears and limitations head on.
There's no bullshit with acting. You have to continually bring your full self to the stage, in front the camera in rehearsal. It is a challenge, and different at every moment. It dares me to be adventurous and brave and constantly curious. I find myself, attempting to mirror those qualities in my own life. Acting has helped me remove the layers I hid behind, and continues to challenge me to live life to fullest every damn day. 
Alpha & Omega Dress (floral version here), Lulu's White Boater Hat, Steven Madden Heels, Necklaces by The 2 Bandits, and Emueroe


Wednesday, July 25, 2018

Delete the Definite. Riding the Unpredictability of Life.

"Do you think you'll always live in Los Angeles?" Lately, a question that I have been prompted with in conversations. It always surprises me. How could I possibly know "where I'll end up" or what I will want in a few years? Twenty somethings are told to pin down life. We pretend we can control it, find ways to settle down. But that's unsettling for me. I think we are taught to run from the unpredictable or unknown. But I know, that's not for me. I learned that from my parents. They packed my brother and I up as young kids to the west coast. They knew no one, they had no clue what was next. I find that incredibly brave- and have noticed how that example has influenced the choices I have made. 
I don't like talking in "definites". That is not how life works. Right now, I love Los Angeles. I fall in love with hidden hillsides in Silverlake, and rocky beaches in Malibu. I fall in love with the sunsets during traffic jams, and the creative people I meet each week. But that doesn't mean its forever. I could live in New York for a summer or book a job in London or move back home to San Francisco. You never know where life will take you, and that unpredictability is the most exciting thing to me. The potential. No matter what age, you'll never know where you'll be in 10 years, 10 days or 10 minutes. Embrace it. 
Reformation Persimmon Dress, Marais Sandals, Clear Purse via Etsy, Ray Ban Sunglasses, Vintage Necklaces. 
Photos by Stefanie Marie


Tuesday, July 17, 2018

Fashion Test Drive- Denim Bermuda Shorts

I tend to avoid trends. As I have gotten older, I find my inspiration in honing my individual style. Verse blinding following what fills the racks of stores. But sometimes a look sparks your interest, and you all know, I am a sucker for anything denim. The denim trend for summer '18? Bermuda shorts. I like mine hitting right above the knee, loose in the legs, and tight at the waist. This style harps back to the early 90's- think Calvin Klein ads and Cindy Crawford. The length of this cut could be considered modest, but with a pair of heels, I find this look very sexy. 
I love these shorts as an alternative to beachy Levi's cut-offs. They are more practical for city life, but still keep you cool in those summer temps. These shorts work not only for LA girls, but my NYC babes as well (who deal with subways, cat calls, and miles of walking). I typically don't take style notes from the Kardashians, but they were some of the first sporting this look. I love how these shorts hug my curves, and highly my feminine silhouette. I paired it with a skin-tight tank, vintage clip on earrings and simple slides. The versatility of these shorts too give them my stamp of approval. Add a chic stiletto and a silk camisole and this outfit is perfect for an evening out. 
My shorts are from Topshop, but you could definitely cut a vintage pair of Levi's into this style. I have a white jeans from the Rose Bowl Flea Market that I am tempted to chop. I think with any trends, if they inspire you- try them out. Don't invest into the real deal, unless you know you will wear it over and over again. Personal style has room for experimentation (just look at some of my past blog posts). Have fun with it, and it will help you hone in on what clothing makes you feel like YOU. I did not expect to love these shorts so much, but sometimes the trendy can fit in in your wardrobe. 
Topshop Denim Bermuda Shorts, Topshop White Tank, Huma Blanco Slides, Vintage Gucci Backpack, Vintage Clip on Earrings from Hip , Vintage belt. 
Photos by Stefanie Marie

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