Friday, August 10, 2018

The Confidence Code.

Confidence. That idea, I chased it for years. My observant self, would soak in people who seemed truly comfortable within themselves. I mimicked their behavior, but had no luck. What was their secret? What was I missing? Once I stopped searching and copying, it slowly came to me. Confidence isn't something we can obtain. It's fleeting. It takes daily work, to radiate that mysterious and generous feeling for life. We all have phases, where we feel strong in our vulnerability, and beautiful in our skin. The work, is making those days more consistent. So the highs and lows aren't so dramatic. 
My style has always been a tool to connect with my confidence. Style is not just clothing to me, its is self expression and point of view. I instantly felt confident in this cool white look. Bell bottoms, crop top, and a fresh hairstyle. All the pieces came together, and I was feeling myself. Never is nothing wrong, in embracing what makes you feel good. And for me, putting on sick outfit can change my point of view for the day. Sometimes the outside helps us shine from the inside. 
All white looks are a little dangerous- the risks for stains and dirt marks is very high. Honestly, white is one of my favorite colors to wear. It's a neutral, and always illuminates tan summer skin. I adore the LA based brand Honey Punch. These stretch flares are coming out in their fall collection. They are a must, and I will be wearing them year round with mens wear button downs, and flirty off the shoulder tops. I love that this look harks back to the 70's. I always find inspiration in other decades, and I always love the sexy playfulness that came with that era of disco + rock n roll. Would you try an all white bell bottom? 
Honey Punch White Bell Bottoms (Available in October similar style here), Lulu's Smock Eyelet Top, Steve Madden Heels, Lulu's Basket Bag (Similar style here).
Photos by Stefanie Marie


Monday, August 6, 2018

Breaking Through: How Acting Brought Me Closer to Myself.

Surprising to some, I was a painfully shy kid. I kept to myself, didn’t talk much, loved being alone. Quiet. Creative. A tiny gentle soul. I remember seeing other kids, loud and boisterous. I never wanted to mimic that. I was observant, and liked to have little attention on me. I hid in my shyness until I found the stage. It was an instant love affair. I realized at a young age, pretending to be someone else gave me freedom. It was a my adrenaline rush. The hot heat of the lights, the buzzing from the audience. Looking back, I know it connected me to the deep and brave parts of me. Even the parts that I wasn't even conscious of existing within me. It was liberating in the pretend- believing I was someone else for an hour or so. It wasn't escapism, it was bringing me closer to myself. 
I notice the shy girl still within me. I wouldn't consider myself a true extrovert. I like to listen more. Take in people, hear about their lives. My heart and spirit are a little guarded when I meet someone new. Over the years, I have worked hard to open up more. Allow myself to reveal sooner, than wait around. I think the shyness overcomes me when I allow self doubts to creep in. 'Imposter syndrome' takes overs. That's when I need acting most- I run away from my life a little. But by diving into these characters, I somehow confront my fears and limitations head on.
There's no bullshit with acting. You have to continually bring your full self to the stage, in front the camera in rehearsal. It is a challenge, and different at every moment. It dares me to be adventurous and brave and constantly curious. I find myself, attempting to mirror those qualities in my own life. Acting has helped me remove the layers I hid behind, and continues to challenge me to live life to fullest every damn day. 
Alpha & Omega Dress (floral version here), Lulu's White Boater Hat, Steven Madden Heels, Necklaces by The 2 Bandits, and Emueroe

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